the forging process.

gonna explain an analogy i used a while ago to explain my plan, i just came up with it on a whim but i think it works really well.

when you see a beautiful ring, or a piece of artwork you dont really think of how it starts do you? you just think of how beautiful it is right? what about a skyscraper? or even a car? or a warship? all you think about is the end product but you never once think about how it started right? take a dimand ring for example.

the ring is extremely beautiful but think of how it started, that dimand was once burred deep in the earth waiting to unleash its true potential. eventually it gets dredged up, but it still looks horrible, perhaps half sticking out of a peice of rock, you first have to break the rock off to get a uncut dimand, then you have to cut and shape and polish it. a process wich takes weeks or months on end. you'd be foolish to think it happens overnight.

now lets think of the ring itself. its probably made of silver or gold but think of how that started, also in the ground and dug up but unlike the dimand theres no breaking off the rock bits and KNOWING you have something of worth. you have to smelt it, forge it into shape. putting the ore in a furnace until it melts down into a bar of silver, then you have to take endless hours to shape and polish the ring.

the main point with both of these examples. it takes TIME its not going to turn into something beautiful overnight. you need to put it under just the right conditions and help it along to unlock its true potential.

also, what is the dimand without the ring?  its just a piece of stone that has no purpose, its beautiful but on its own its nothing. it needs a mount to hold it. and thats were the ring comes in. supporting it just right and accenting it to make it beautiful. without the other each of them are nothing. think about that for a while


and now a final  statement i would like to make is that my ore, my lump of rock has only just been found. i know what im going to do with it but its going o take time. and anyone who trys to rush me can go to hell. its going to take time but when its over it will take your breath away. it may look like nothings happening but when you first put the ore in the fire you cant see any changes to it, hell even when you take it out all you end up with is a dull bar of metal and you might not think thats important but it is. once things start taking shape its easy to see what the end result will be.

crossroads.

if anyone actuly reads this, try to cope with my typing skills.

So the past three weeks have been quite the crossroads, infact im still in then until things get far enough along that im not tempted to go back and change them. you see the fact is that for the past few months or so ive been saying ill be going back to job-corps, get my certification as a welder and go work on the oilfields in newtown for five years making a six figure income. and while thats all fine and peachy, infact some may think its quite the deal, its not what I WANT to do. and in the end thats what life is about. being happy with what your doing with it eh?

so as of now i dont care what anyone tells me. within reason ofcourse. butim gonna do what i want. its gonna be hard and gonna take a long time to achive it but i am going to do it. i dont care if i have to climb a mountain or go to space to do it. i am going to do it. the fires of passion are burning. and there burning ferociously.

i know my sister thinks im not gonna be able to do it but i dont give a damn. i know my parents are skeptical but im gonna shock them into silence once it starts. hell once i do it i know everyone i know will tell me that they never thought i could do it, or maybe that they thought i could but they never thought it would be THIS. and the fact that i know that they dont think i can do it only fuels my fire. wich pushes me forward. i know everyone thinks im going to take the road to the plain level ground when infact im about to climb my own moutian. and when i reach the summit i know i will have accomplished something. not only that but i did it under my own power.